An overdue apology

[x_cannonball]

I wanted to give a week for everything to settle down and so I could collect my thoughts. I'm currently suspended from teaching and the team due to hurting quite a few people and I'd like to take responsibility for that right now. I shouldn't have projected my anger onto the employees of Snow Valley and I certainly should have been cautious enough and in enough control to not hurt Kyle. I am very sincerely sorry for all of those events. I know better and there's nothing excusing me from those decisions.

I owe several of you quite a bit and Kyle the most. I have no right to expect forgiveness but I'd like to do what I can to try to earn it. I try to look at the positive side of most things and I think this has helped me to understand some things I hope I can pass on to others when the time is right. I've made the decision that I'll gladly explain everything to anybody who wants to ask me about what happened so they can learn from my mistakes.

My favorite author, Robert A. Heinlein, wrote in "Starship Troopers" that "Violence is the ultimate authority from which all other authority is derived." I always believed that was wrong and that the ultimate authority was freedom. The same book also says that violence "has settled more issues in history than has any other factor." I had always believed that hope and mercy held that honor. Now I know that I was right. I hope that I can use my experience to help others and my new knowledge to make up for my mistakes.

Comments

[x-wildchild.livejournal.com]

Kyle will be taking his apology in the form of a very damn large steak burrito, no spicy stuff. Or small bills, those work too.

When you explain to people what happened, can you make it sound like I was a lot cooler and got a few licks in before you hit me?

I don't know that I think Heinlein was wrong but I don't think he was right either. I think he was kinda thinking too narrowly. Violence is a pretty damn strong authority but it's not an honest one. You hit a guy, he might do what you want once, but he's sure as hell not gonna like you and that's gonna make him not want to do more of what you want.

Unless it's Garrison hitting me, and then that's also totally different because that's learning to fight. Sometimes you gotta get hit to learn to throw a punch.

I forgot where I was going with this.

Oh, right. Fear isn't a good motivator is what I'm saying. Neither is hitting folks.

But I AM serious about the burrito.

[x-snowflake.livejournal.com]

I don't even know what you just wrote - you should work on coherence - but if you ever wake me up in the middle of the night again they are going to be finding pieces of you all across the globe.

They will still be twitching.